*+*Okie.. 4 e 2nD time mY posT was dEletEd.. wht e heLL.. i wrOte a lot loRx.. noW i 4gOt eVerytinK le.. dAMn shit mAN.. maYb gOd dn wAN mi 2 posT it.. thaTs y.. urGh..n yEs.. i'M blogGIng iN e morning aGaIn.. tinK i gOt e aDdIcTioN 4 bloGginG aGaIn.. cOs i gOt a lot of sTuFF wAN 2 say.. but cAN i say?*+*

*+*sO i tinK.. 2DaY i'M juS gOin 2 write wHtevEr i cAN writE.. *+*

*+*xIaoxue mIng yaN: wO xianG xIn biE ren shI duI de.. rU guO na ge reN piaN wO.. nA shI ta de chUo..*+*

*+*yEs.. i CrEaTE tiS phraSe long time aGo... if u hAnG ouT wiF mi iN sEc sCh dAYs.. tinK u wiLL haF heARd it tiLL lyK nuMb liaOx.. gueSs i invEntED thaT 2 cOmFOrt myslf.. coS.. aT thaT timE.. theRE wEre sO mANi lieS n disTrusT aROund.. n mY weaKneSS iS 2 trusT anIone 2 eASilY.. n iN e enD.. i'M e one hu aLwAYs gO huRt iN e end..*+*

*+* 4 a lonG time sIncE i gRaDuaTe froM sCondAry SchoOl i fELt tiS wAy.. i SenSe fEaR.. y dO i gEt tiS fEaR..whT aM i sO afrAiD oF.. i tinK At e deePeSt dArkEsS plaCe iN my heaRt lieS e aNsWer.. i guESS i'm sum1 hU neEds aSSuranCE.. n yeT.. i dN fELt aNitinK.. n i choOse 2 bElieVe iN peOplE.. iT'S a risK i tAke.. i gaf mY 110% trusT out.. buT dO i gEt 110% trusT bacK? i noe maYb not.. but i tinK i neVer rEgReted putting tRusT iN peoplE..*+*

*+*fReNdShiP is bEing puT aT e wAr zOnE.. it's sO fragilE.. iT cN juS wEakeNs n die ofF.. n wht'S dEalieSt poisOn? rumourS.. saCrifises neEds 2 b maDe.. risK neEds 2 b takeN.. worriES n morE wORries..whEn iS it gOin 2 enD? is theRe anotheR waY ouT .. insTEad oF choOsing 2 hiDe... tO aCt.. to fAke.. to shoW displeAse behind eAch otheR.. is there aniwAY wheRe eVeryone cAN juS fAcE eAch otheR n thrOW eVery singLe tink ouT n sort iT ouT fACe-to fACe.. teLL mi.. do eVeryone haF e courAge 2 fAcE up 2 whAt was thrOwN on uR fACe.. whT wiLL e endIng haF bEeN iF WE choOsE tiS patH.. *+*

*+*whEn 1 keEp sAyinG thaT he/shE iS not aFraiD oF lonEinEss.. iS he/ shE reaLi yearning 4 company.. wheN 1 keeP saying thaT he/ shE iS stronG.. buT truelY.. hoW weAk he/shE is inside?*+*

*+* i'M being dumB kx.. i'M juS writing worDs 2 shoOt mYslF.. i'vE totaLLy losT my wiLL 2 do stuFf aROund.. i meAn... i can'T c aNimorE.. i'm blindEd.. hu is reAL.. hU is fAke.. hu cN i truST.. hu is goinG 2 trust mI.. whAt do i reALi wAN.. whT aM i seeKing 4.. whT e heLL iS goinG oN.. cAn i nOE.. can i tELL. wiLl e truth aPpeaR.. wiLL i surVivE..*+*

*+* I haTe tiS lifE.. y cAN'T e viciouS cycLe juS gEt out oF my lifE.. i tOt i've gOt a chAncE 2 sTarT afReSh wheN i cAMe heRe.. iT did sTARt fReSh.. theN tinKs bCamE e saMe afTer a whilE.. why? whY? whY? i lost tOucH wiF e worLd.. i fELt So alieN.. i juS wan 2 gEt bAck e sAMe fEELing oF hoW i fELt whEN i 1st cAMe.. caN i? wiLL i bE aBlE 2 do thaT? i'M oN e vErGe oF faLlinG aPaRt.. i dO..*+*

*+*i juS wAN 2 leAD a haPpy lifE.. isit reaLi thaT haRd?*+*

*+*Okie.. 4 e 2nD time mY posT was dEletEd.. wht e heLL.. i wrOte a lot loRx.. noW i 4gOt eVerytinK le.. dAMn shit mAN.. maYb gOd dn wAN mi 2 posT it.. thaTs y.. urGh..n yEs.. i'M blogGIng iN e morning aGaIn.. tinK i gOt e aDdIcTioN 4 bloGginG aGaIn.. cOs i gOt a lot of sTuFF wAN 2 say.. but cAN i say?*+*

*+*sO i tinK.. 2DaY i'M juS gOin 2 write wHtevEr i cAN writE.. *+*

*+*xIaoxue mIng yaN: wO xianG xIn biE ren shI duI de.. rU guO na ge reN piaN wO.. nA shI ta de chUo..*+*

*+*yEs.. i CrEaTE tiS phraSe long time aGo... if u hAnG ouT wiF mi iN sEc sCh dAYs.. tinK u wiLL haF heARd it tiLL lyK nuMb liaOx.. gueSs i invEntED thaT 2 cOmFOrt myslf.. coS.. aT thaT timE.. theRE wEre sO mANi lieS n disTrusT aROund.. n mY weaKneSS iS 2 trusT anIone 2 eASilY.. n iN e enD.. i'M e one hu aLwAYs gO huRt iN e end..*+*

*+* 4 a lonG time sIncE i gRaDuaTe froM sCondAry SchoOl i fELt tiS wAy.. i SenSe fEaR.. y dO i gEt tiS fEaR..whT aM i sO afrAiD oF.. i tinK At e deePeSt dArkEsS plaCe iN my heaRt lieS e aNsWer.. i guESS i'm sum1 hU neEds aSSuranCE.. n yeT.. i dN fELt aNitinK.. n i choOse 2 bElieVe iN peOplE.. iT'S a risK i tAke.. i gaf mY 110% trusT out.. buT dO i gEt 110% trusT bacK? i noe maYb not.. but i tinK i neVer rEgReted putting tRusT iN peoplE..*+*

*+*fReNdShiP is bEing puT aT e wAr zOnE.. it's sO fragilE.. iT cN juS wEakeNs n die ofF.. n wht'S dEalieSt poisOn? rumourS.. saCrifises neEds 2 b maDe.. risK neEds 2 b takeN.. worriES n morE wORries..whEn iS it gOin 2 enD? is theRe anotheR waY ouT .. insTEad oF choOsing 2 hiDe... tO aCt.. to fAke.. to shoW displeAse behind eAch otheR.. is there aniwAY wheRe eVeryone cAN juS fAcE eAch otheR n thrOW eVery singLe tink ouT n sort iT ouT fACe-to fACe.. teLL mi.. do eVeryone haF e courAge 2 fAcE up 2 whAt was thrOwN on uR fACe.. whT wiLL e endIng haF bEeN iF WE choOsE tiS patH.. *+*

*+*whEn 1 keEp sAyinG thaT he/shE iS not aFraiD oF lonEinEss.. iS he/ shE reaLi yearning 4 company.. wheN 1 keeP saying thaT he/ shE iS stronG.. buT truelY.. hoW weAk he/shE is inside?*+*

*+* i'M being dumB kx.. i'M juS writing worDs 2 shoOt mYslF.. i'vE totaLLy losT my wiLL 2 do stuFf aROund.. i meAn... i can'T c aNimorE.. i'm blindEd.. hu is reAL.. hU is fAke.. hu cN i truST.. hu is goinG 2 trust mI.. whAt do i reALi wAN.. whT aM i seeKing 4.. whT e heLL iS goinG oN.. cAn i nOE.. can i tELL. wiLl e truth aPpeaR.. wiLL i surVivE..*+*

*+* I haTe tiS lifE.. y cAN'T e viciouS cycLe juS gEt out oF my lifE.. i tOt i've gOt a chAncE 2 sTarT afReSh wheN i cAMe heRe.. iT did sTARt fReSh.. theN tinKs bCamE e saMe afTer a whilE.. why? whY? whY? i lost tOucH wiF e worLd.. i fELt So alieN.. i juS wan 2 gEt bAck e sAMe fEELing oF hoW i fELt whEN i 1st cAMe.. caN i? wiLL i bE aBlE 2 do thaT? i'M oN e vErGe oF faLlinG aPaRt.. i dO..*+*

*+*i juS wAN 2 leAD a haPpy lifE.. isit reaLi thaT haRd?*+*

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