Seriously.. Life suxs..

Haha.. i tink i kinda lost my direction of life again.. mayb due to the fact that i tink my life is in a total mess now.. i'm almost losing everytink..(or i tink i haf lost everytink..) Frends, family, studies, Love, Urgh.. everytink larx.. I'm so sick of tis..

If i dn find back my motivation 4 life soon.. i tink.. i'm so screwed n dead..

To e both of u..:I noe i'm showing highly disrespect.. But.. did u guys show mi e due respect i shld get.. Sometimes i reali dn understand wht u guys r tinking abt.. Sometimes u all just treat it as alrite.. sometimes u all treat it as if i went to murder n tarnish the family name.. If u guys r in the worst of mood.. u all shld'nt b putting all ur temper on mi rite.. Yesh.. i admit.. i did'nt call home last nite.. I mean.. 1stly, my phone battery died on mi.. Wht can i do..? 2ndly, u guys noe tt i always never call hm de.. cos i everytime work also so late come back.. nvm abt tt.. so i apologise.. but wht e heck is wrong wif u guys? i reali went out wif ling n siew yest.. wht u guys were suspecting off? n i work in frnt of e com 2 wee hrs is not 2 do hanky-panky stuff or surf porn alrite? gif mi tt time n i rather slp.. U all shouted n scream at mi as though i'm a criminal.. wOrst still a bit*h.. Fu*k.. now i say.. serious.. i'm alreasy so stressed out wif all e projects falling on mi le.. i never let u guys noe all my problems.. n when i do.. u all jus say i grumble abt my life.. Fu*k.. i say also kena say by u all.. i dn say also kena say by u all.. wht u wan mi 2 do? U all keep tinking i'm jus being damn rebelious.. n keep threatening to ask mi 2 move out n support myslf if i can.. u all wan mi 2 repeat history again isit? haha.. Then when i reali do it.. u all pull mi back.. Fu*k.. U guys threaten 2 punish mi wif e usual way.. Seriously.. i say.. come larx.. from young till now.. when haf i not got tt treatment? E faster n harder e better.. kill mi even better.. then i wun haf 2 painstakenly tink of 101 ways to kill myslf.. i tink i haf no regrets on earth le bah.. if i jus die now..

I was reali so mad last nite.. when pple get framed 4 sth they did'nt do.. they will b beri mad n keep trying to clear their name rite.. they will felt injustice done to them.. but.. u jus c larx.. when they framed other pple wif tinks other pple did'nt do.. did they felt anitink?? i doubt it.. Human r jus so.. OMG.. Fu*k.. i noe i'm ranting on n on n on.. but jus let mi alrite.. it's a place 4 mi 2 rant marx.. i dn rant here then i'll explode inside.. Haix.. If u guys keep tinking e way u all did.. i also got no way 2 change it.. dn tok 2 mi abt u guys r changing.. u guys r not.. u guys r jus forcing mi 2 do tinks e way u wan mi 2 .. n u guys r suffocating mi already.. Jus wait.. i can't wait 2 hit my 21st birthday.. my 1st step 2 get fresh air..

Hmm.. after saying so much then felt reali better.. haha.. shld tok more abt yest.. LOL.. yest was lyk past in a breeze.. since it was wed.. furthurmore.. Mob tutorial play team building game marx.. so was quite fun.. n e egg nest tink reali test our grps bonding.. n finally i tot.. actually.. our mob grp was reali great man.. n our egg did'nt break.. Yeah! After tt was stats lecture.. 4 once in my life.. i actually reali listen thru e whole lecture..(okie.. dn include e part tt i keep looking at pple in e lecture hall.. bleh..) Felt actually stats's actually not tt hard.. but u mus b careful n put ur souls in it.. haha.. Feels great 2 listen 2 lectures.. But there's 1 great big disadvantage.. i felt so out of the world.. i dnnoe.. feel tt i dn mixed into the grp as well as b4 le.. Mayb cos every1 is moving forward while i'm still left behind.. i guess..

Okie.. so after tt.. went to discuss ideas a while.. then went off 4 Gems le..A bit disappointed.. 1st test onli got 72.. When there r pple getting 100.. Mcqs lehx... 1 qn then 4 marks le.. so i got 7 wrong larx.. haix.. Nvm lorx.. will try harder.. mayb do well 4 essay then will get my A le.. Mus jia you.. Hmm.. then cos Gems ends early.. so i haf 2 wait 4 ling at dover station.. erm.. i tink i waited 4 abt close to an hr bah.. Was standing at e overhead bridge there.. looking at e cars go.. Haix.. i also dnnoe wht i'm tinking abt.. aniway.. jus stood there lyk a fool.. which indeed i am..

After she came.. went to bukit batok wif her to get her jigsaw puzzle done.. but can't cos the shop is no longer there.. since haf 2 wait 4 siew 2 come also.. so went to walk walk around west mall.. kinda lyk e mall.. Lots of shop n not much pple.. Haha.. then brought clothes there.. beri beri nice once somemore.. Not very much my style.. cos i never try wearing lyk tt b4.. so tt's y i buy rite.. hmm...spent close to 50 bucks.. wHooping.. then walk somemore cos siew still haven come..

Well.. we tot we were kinda late when siew came.. can't blame her.. lessons ends at 4 n she's at temasek.. Hmm.. but.. we r not larx.. still manage to get there n get pretty gd seats.. ya.. there were superstars n singpore idol pple there.. n there were also judges from li wei song yin yue jiao shi.. WooT.. some sang reali reali well.. some.. jus lost out.. We got to vote too.. n e guy i vote did'nt win.. although he got e highest marks from the judges..*e world is jus so unfair*.. cos the guy hu got champion has the highest no of votes,..130 lehx.. there's pple hu onli get 6 okie.. then our vote actually stands 60% of their results.. so u c.. but the guy hu won has the ability 2 sing larx.. so nvm lorx.. e ger hu got 1st runner up is by pure voting she got tt.. I mean.. other than her 'wu tai mei li'.. everytink lacks out a lot..Well.. can't say much rite..

N they haf lucky draw.. n i got it.. can u imagine it?? LOL.. so mani hundred n i'm 1 of them.. mus b bos my ticket is brought from the shuai ge host.. Haha.. ya larx.. got party world voucher.. Jio mi sing k after exams b4 mar 15 bah!! Yeah..

Event onli ended at arn 10.. N it was raining.. (yesh.. it rained again.. haha..) by then time i got hm was lyk close to 12 mn le.. Bathe n jus fall alslp.. hu noe god wht ever shit.. Tink when i jus fall alslp.. War fall upon mi.. So.. ya.. had war in bed.. hu cares reali rite.. i swear i'll never treat them nice again.. since they always crush my trust on them.. Fu*k..

Today...

Today's Sb day.. n dumb mi tot lecture at 12 nn.. but e fact is it's at 11.. so when i got to the lecture hall.. i jus sat down 4 5 mins then end of lecture le.. haha.. n attendance 4 e whole hall was pathetic.. then went out to the fair to play n eat.. e choc mushmallow is super nice.. haha.. yesh.. i love chocolate..*throw away e tot of being fat 4 a moment..*

Then got a pair of earrings from fel's store.. so incidentally e pair i brought is yy's pair.. haha.. then went to eat hotdogs.. wif cheese inside.. super nice.. realli.. although it's a bit charred.. but hu cares as long as it taste nice.. then yy called to say they were outside tis room n call us if we wan 2 get in to take a look.. Well.. $2 entrance fee.. n the room was lyk jus a lounge.. super cool.. dark n dim.. n we brought drinks..ya.. they haf wierd names lyk muddy water n policeman n we haf nuts too.. haha.. WE (mi,angela,wx,yy,benzy,jean,jy,ym..)chat n luff larx.. Time jus passes lyk tt..

At arn 1.15.. decided to leave e place n head off 4 haunted hse.. Gees.. met ms han along the way..cos outside e office got buffet 4 lecturers.. then we say hi n bye then went 2 T19 lorx.. Well.. the place has quite some pple queuing.. n so we had to queue.. but it was a queue worth while.. there were 2 seperate rooms wif different theme.. 1 is western.. 1 eastern.. N both were bloody scared.. E 6 of us remains went..(mi,yy,angela,benzy,jean n ym..) then we went in a grp of 3.. i went wif benzy n angela.. So funny larx.. all our reaction is lyk reali make mi luff until cry.. then all of us scream lyk hell.. e 1st room was western..so funny when e 1st person.. or ghost rather jump on us.. n we haf 2 made to crawl thru a tunnel.. E funny part is tt.. there's a ghost above the tunnel jus rite above the ending of the tunnel waiting to scare us.. LOL.. benzy went 1st.. cos e 2pid ghost tt scared us at the frnt keep wanted to grab hold of us.. so we want to quickly get pass the tunnel.. LOL.. cos benzy did'nt noe there's another 1 at e ending.. n it's so freaking.. haha.. she or he jus pops her mask face wif long frizzy hair in frnt of u tt made u scream n jump.. n u dnnoe how 2 get pass tt ting..haha.. I went 2nd.. n tt freaking tink was lyk reali freaky.. n of cos.. i scream a hell lot..

Angela went last.. n her reaction is the funniest.. cos the ghost in frnt keep wanting to grab hold of her.. but she also scared to go thru e tunnel after we scream.. then she saw e freaky tink.. N keep saying.."Ahh.. go away larx.. go back where u belong.. Blah blah blah.." i can't remember le.. but it was damn funny.. haha.. then we had to pull the freaking head up to let her pass.. tink mi n angela cling onto benzy 4 all our dear lives.. haha..

After we came out of the 1st room.. we were lyk .. omg.. it was so scary lorx.. then still got 2nd room.. when we got in.. I got scared by the white tink at e corner.. Tt stretch out her hand..i was lyk scream n scared till i fall down.. wah liaox.. so funny larx.. then it's so dark.. u can't reali c where u r going.. then there's a lot of corner.. then sometimes there will b hands coming out of the table underneath trying to grab ur hands.. or whack u.. or ghost tt jump out n keep following u.. wah liaox.. they stay there after they scare u still okie lehx.. they still keep following u tt kind.. then at e part where the following ghost suddenly jump out.. angela got so scared n fell while she struggle.. Erm.. she was grabbing on to benzy so he fell.. i was grabbing on to benzy.. so i fell 2.. so e 3 of us jus stuggle to get up n get away from tt irritating fellow trying to get hold of us.. e props were wOw.. where did they get an altar man?? dotx.. i dnnoe how i manage to survive the whole tink.. but i tink i did.. LOL..

E next grp tt went also scream lyk hell.. we can hear them from outside.. i tink both of our grps scream lyk hell larx.. Haha.. After we came out.. we all agreed it was a reali well done haunted hse.. really.. 1 of e best i went le.. LOL.. so sad e others were'nt here.. haha..

Lol.. still stuck in biz lib.. dnnoe later wan go main library anot.. Cos i reali dn wan to go hm so early.. Go back also sianx..also wun do anitink there.. but staying in sch i also dnnoe wht i wan to start on.. haix.. tink i'll start on ideas 1st.. n not 4getting.. there's PaCc test 2molo.. though onli 10% but it may help mi a lot le.. dn play play.. okie larx.. tt's it 4 now larx.. if from now till goin hm still got tinks can blog then i'll blog it.. =)

Seriously.. Life suxs..

Haha.. i tink i kinda lost my direction of life again.. mayb due to the fact that i tink my life is in a total mess now.. i'm almost losing everytink..(or i tink i haf lost everytink..) Frends, family, studies, Love, Urgh.. everytink larx.. I'm so sick of tis..

If i dn find back my motivation 4 life soon.. i tink.. i'm so screwed n dead..

To e both of u..:I noe i'm showing highly disrespect.. But.. did u guys show mi e due respect i shld get.. Sometimes i reali dn understand wht u guys r tinking abt.. Sometimes u all just treat it as alrite.. sometimes u all treat it as if i went to murder n tarnish the family name.. If u guys r in the worst of mood.. u all shld'nt b putting all ur temper on mi rite.. Yesh.. i admit.. i did'nt call home last nite.. I mean.. 1stly, my phone battery died on mi.. Wht can i do..? 2ndly, u guys noe tt i always never call hm de.. cos i everytime work also so late come back.. nvm abt tt.. so i apologise.. but wht e heck is wrong wif u guys? i reali went out wif ling n siew yest.. wht u guys were suspecting off? n i work in frnt of e com 2 wee hrs is not 2 do hanky-panky stuff or surf porn alrite? gif mi tt time n i rather slp.. U all shouted n scream at mi as though i'm a criminal.. wOrst still a bit*h.. Fu*k.. now i say.. serious.. i'm alreasy so stressed out wif all e projects falling on mi le.. i never let u guys noe all my problems.. n when i do.. u all jus say i grumble abt my life.. Fu*k.. i say also kena say by u all.. i dn say also kena say by u all.. wht u wan mi 2 do? U all keep tinking i'm jus being damn rebelious.. n keep threatening to ask mi 2 move out n support myslf if i can.. u all wan mi 2 repeat history again isit? haha.. Then when i reali do it.. u all pull mi back.. Fu*k.. U guys threaten 2 punish mi wif e usual way.. Seriously.. i say.. come larx.. from young till now.. when haf i not got tt treatment? E faster n harder e better.. kill mi even better.. then i wun haf 2 painstakenly tink of 101 ways to kill myslf.. i tink i haf no regrets on earth le bah.. if i jus die now..

I was reali so mad last nite.. when pple get framed 4 sth they did'nt do.. they will b beri mad n keep trying to clear their name rite.. they will felt injustice done to them.. but.. u jus c larx.. when they framed other pple wif tinks other pple did'nt do.. did they felt anitink?? i doubt it.. Human r jus so.. OMG.. Fu*k.. i noe i'm ranting on n on n on.. but jus let mi alrite.. it's a place 4 mi 2 rant marx.. i dn rant here then i'll explode inside.. Haix.. If u guys keep tinking e way u all did.. i also got no way 2 change it.. dn tok 2 mi abt u guys r changing.. u guys r not.. u guys r jus forcing mi 2 do tinks e way u wan mi 2 .. n u guys r suffocating mi already.. Jus wait.. i can't wait 2 hit my 21st birthday.. my 1st step 2 get fresh air..

Hmm.. after saying so much then felt reali better.. haha.. shld tok more abt yest.. LOL.. yest was lyk past in a breeze.. since it was wed.. furthurmore.. Mob tutorial play team building game marx.. so was quite fun.. n e egg nest tink reali test our grps bonding.. n finally i tot.. actually.. our mob grp was reali great man.. n our egg did'nt break.. Yeah! After tt was stats lecture.. 4 once in my life.. i actually reali listen thru e whole lecture..(okie.. dn include e part tt i keep looking at pple in e lecture hall.. bleh..) Felt actually stats's actually not tt hard.. but u mus b careful n put ur souls in it.. haha.. Feels great 2 listen 2 lectures.. But there's 1 great big disadvantage.. i felt so out of the world.. i dnnoe.. feel tt i dn mixed into the grp as well as b4 le.. Mayb cos every1 is moving forward while i'm still left behind.. i guess..

Okie.. so after tt.. went to discuss ideas a while.. then went off 4 Gems le..A bit disappointed.. 1st test onli got 72.. When there r pple getting 100.. Mcqs lehx... 1 qn then 4 marks le.. so i got 7 wrong larx.. haix.. Nvm lorx.. will try harder.. mayb do well 4 essay then will get my A le.. Mus jia you.. Hmm.. then cos Gems ends early.. so i haf 2 wait 4 ling at dover station.. erm.. i tink i waited 4 abt close to an hr bah.. Was standing at e overhead bridge there.. looking at e cars go.. Haix.. i also dnnoe wht i'm tinking abt.. aniway.. jus stood there lyk a fool.. which indeed i am..

After she came.. went to bukit batok wif her to get her jigsaw puzzle done.. but can't cos the shop is no longer there.. since haf 2 wait 4 siew 2 come also.. so went to walk walk around west mall.. kinda lyk e mall.. Lots of shop n not much pple.. Haha.. then brought clothes there.. beri beri nice once somemore.. Not very much my style.. cos i never try wearing lyk tt b4.. so tt's y i buy rite.. hmm...spent close to 50 bucks.. wHooping.. then walk somemore cos siew still haven come..

Well.. we tot we were kinda late when siew came.. can't blame her.. lessons ends at 4 n she's at temasek.. Hmm.. but.. we r not larx.. still manage to get there n get pretty gd seats.. ya.. there were superstars n singpore idol pple there.. n there were also judges from li wei song yin yue jiao shi.. WooT.. some sang reali reali well.. some.. jus lost out.. We got to vote too.. n e guy i vote did'nt win.. although he got e highest marks from the judges..*e world is jus so unfair*.. cos the guy hu got champion has the highest no of votes,..130 lehx.. there's pple hu onli get 6 okie.. then our vote actually stands 60% of their results.. so u c.. but the guy hu won has the ability 2 sing larx.. so nvm lorx.. e ger hu got 1st runner up is by pure voting she got tt.. I mean.. other than her 'wu tai mei li'.. everytink lacks out a lot..Well.. can't say much rite..

N they haf lucky draw.. n i got it.. can u imagine it?? LOL.. so mani hundred n i'm 1 of them.. mus b bos my ticket is brought from the shuai ge host.. Haha.. ya larx.. got party world voucher.. Jio mi sing k after exams b4 mar 15 bah!! Yeah..

Event onli ended at arn 10.. N it was raining.. (yesh.. it rained again.. haha..) by then time i got hm was lyk close to 12 mn le.. Bathe n jus fall alslp.. hu noe god wht ever shit.. Tink when i jus fall alslp.. War fall upon mi.. So.. ya.. had war in bed.. hu cares reali rite.. i swear i'll never treat them nice again.. since they always crush my trust on them.. Fu*k..

Today...

Today's Sb day.. n dumb mi tot lecture at 12 nn.. but e fact is it's at 11.. so when i got to the lecture hall.. i jus sat down 4 5 mins then end of lecture le.. haha.. n attendance 4 e whole hall was pathetic.. then went out to the fair to play n eat.. e choc mushmallow is super nice.. haha.. yesh.. i love chocolate..*throw away e tot of being fat 4 a moment..*

Then got a pair of earrings from fel's store.. so incidentally e pair i brought is yy's pair.. haha.. then went to eat hotdogs.. wif cheese inside.. super nice.. realli.. although it's a bit charred.. but hu cares as long as it taste nice.. then yy called to say they were outside tis room n call us if we wan 2 get in to take a look.. Well.. $2 entrance fee.. n the room was lyk jus a lounge.. super cool.. dark n dim.. n we brought drinks..ya.. they haf wierd names lyk muddy water n policeman n we haf nuts too.. haha.. WE (mi,angela,wx,yy,benzy,jean,jy,ym..)chat n luff larx.. Time jus passes lyk tt..

At arn 1.15.. decided to leave e place n head off 4 haunted hse.. Gees.. met ms han along the way..cos outside e office got buffet 4 lecturers.. then we say hi n bye then went 2 T19 lorx.. Well.. the place has quite some pple queuing.. n so we had to queue.. but it was a queue worth while.. there were 2 seperate rooms wif different theme.. 1 is western.. 1 eastern.. N both were bloody scared.. E 6 of us remains went..(mi,yy,angela,benzy,jean n ym..) then we went in a grp of 3.. i went wif benzy n angela.. So funny larx.. all our reaction is lyk reali make mi luff until cry.. then all of us scream lyk hell.. e 1st room was western..so funny when e 1st person.. or ghost rather jump on us.. n we haf 2 made to crawl thru a tunnel.. E funny part is tt.. there's a ghost above the tunnel jus rite above the ending of the tunnel waiting to scare us.. LOL.. benzy went 1st.. cos e 2pid ghost tt scared us at the frnt keep wanted to grab hold of us.. so we want to quickly get pass the tunnel.. LOL.. cos benzy did'nt noe there's another 1 at e ending.. n it's so freaking.. haha.. she or he jus pops her mask face wif long frizzy hair in frnt of u tt made u scream n jump.. n u dnnoe how 2 get pass tt ting..haha.. I went 2nd.. n tt freaking tink was lyk reali freaky.. n of cos.. i scream a hell lot..

Angela went last.. n her reaction is the funniest.. cos the ghost in frnt keep wanting to grab hold of her.. but she also scared to go thru e tunnel after we scream.. then she saw e freaky tink.. N keep saying.."Ahh.. go away larx.. go back where u belong.. Blah blah blah.." i can't remember le.. but it was damn funny.. haha.. then we had to pull the freaking head up to let her pass.. tink mi n angela cling onto benzy 4 all our dear lives.. haha..

After we came out of the 1st room.. we were lyk .. omg.. it was so scary lorx.. then still got 2nd room.. when we got in.. I got scared by the white tink at e corner.. Tt stretch out her hand..i was lyk scream n scared till i fall down.. wah liaox.. so funny larx.. then it's so dark.. u can't reali c where u r going.. then there's a lot of corner.. then sometimes there will b hands coming out of the table underneath trying to grab ur hands.. or whack u.. or ghost tt jump out n keep following u.. wah liaox.. they stay there after they scare u still okie lehx.. they still keep following u tt kind.. then at e part where the following ghost suddenly jump out.. angela got so scared n fell while she struggle.. Erm.. she was grabbing on to benzy so he fell.. i was grabbing on to benzy.. so i fell 2.. so e 3 of us jus stuggle to get up n get away from tt irritating fellow trying to get hold of us.. e props were wOw.. where did they get an altar man?? dotx.. i dnnoe how i manage to survive the whole tink.. but i tink i did.. LOL..

E next grp tt went also scream lyk hell.. we can hear them from outside.. i tink both of our grps scream lyk hell larx.. Haha.. After we came out.. we all agreed it was a reali well done haunted hse.. really.. 1 of e best i went le.. LOL.. so sad e others were'nt here.. haha..

Lol.. still stuck in biz lib.. dnnoe later wan go main library anot.. Cos i reali dn wan to go hm so early.. Go back also sianx..also wun do anitink there.. but staying in sch i also dnnoe wht i wan to start on.. haix.. tink i'll start on ideas 1st.. n not 4getting.. there's PaCc test 2molo.. though onli 10% but it may help mi a lot le.. dn play play.. okie larx.. tt's it 4 now larx.. if from now till goin hm still got tinks can blog then i'll blog it.. =)

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