I'm thankful for all the support my loved ones are giving me at this time. I cannot tell you guys how grateful that is to me now.

It feel as if you had some sort of illness that keeps relapsing on you. I can't seem to shut my tear duct. At times, you feel alright and at times you just start crying without any indication. This feeling sucks.

I am in no position to whine about pain but yet i still feel it. What am i exactly. I don't know.

It's been a long time since i felt so unstable and i know it's something we have to cope with. I'm trying and not rushing into anything. I think it's only fair that i give myself time.

Quite a few people told me that it's alright for me to feel the pain. After all, the time we spent together wasn't short and there are sure plenty of things to constantly remind us of the wonderful memories we had together before. I cannot disagree.

This whole thing is wearing me out in a big way though.. When you see yourself at 8am in the morning, staring into space on the sofa for the entire morning, walked around the house like an empty soul, started crying in your room like a mad woman for a good hour, started packing up your messy room, rummaging through possessions, cry over pieces of memories, sat on the sofa again, cry over the phone when you talk to someone, cry in the shower and finally dragging yourself out of the house to get some decent food in you because you don't want to let your loved ones be worried.

I feel so weak deep down inside. Maybe it's alright for me to be weak for awhile because i need all the strength later on to be independent again.

Really don't think i should go back to work in such a train wreck stage but too bad, life still has to go on. Like it or not.

I'm thankful for all the support my loved ones are giving me at this time. I cannot tell you guys how grateful that is to me now.

It feel as if you had some sort of illness that keeps relapsing on you. I can't seem to shut my tear duct. At times, you feel alright and at times you just start crying without any indication. This feeling sucks.

I am in no position to whine about pain but yet i still feel it. What am i exactly. I don't know.

It's been a long time since i felt so unstable and i know it's something we have to cope with. I'm trying and not rushing into anything. I think it's only fair that i give myself time.

Quite a few people told me that it's alright for me to feel the pain. After all, the time we spent together wasn't short and there are sure plenty of things to constantly remind us of the wonderful memories we had together before. I cannot disagree.

This whole thing is wearing me out in a big way though.. When you see yourself at 8am in the morning, staring into space on the sofa for the entire morning, walked around the house like an empty soul, started crying in your room like a mad woman for a good hour, started packing up your messy room, rummaging through possessions, cry over pieces of memories, sat on the sofa again, cry over the phone when you talk to someone, cry in the shower and finally dragging yourself out of the house to get some decent food in you because you don't want to let your loved ones be worried.

I feel so weak deep down inside. Maybe it's alright for me to be weak for awhile because i need all the strength later on to be independent again.

Really don't think i should go back to work in such a train wreck stage but too bad, life still has to go on. Like it or not.

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